I used to crush easily. it didn’t take much to make me feel the pull inside my chest. Crooked teeth, a scar, a sickness, a funny smile, bright eyes…it could be any thing that set me off on having a crush. smitten. i would feel alive. my friend once said, “you know how when you have a crush you do fun things just to make your life more interesting for when you talk with your crush?” She started a list of things that she did to have something to talk about with her new crush… potted a plant, made a stencil, played basketball.. and on and on. I get that. there was a certain tension that came along with having a crush and it made life feel awful and thrilling and desperate. when i look at the one i have chosen for this lifetime, i can still remember what it felt like in those early days. i never want to forget what it feels like to have a crush.
Since I can’t seem to make myself blog lately, I decided I can change that by following a former professor of mine who is doing the A-Z challenge. For the month of April, you write a post for one letter of the alphabet. I decided to do past crushes A-Z. Maybe a bit indulgent but at least it will get me writing and doesn’t have a lot of pressure of having to be worthwhile. xo-